Now and Then

Ever wondered how long those people in the old days could live so damn long? How the people nowadays only live till like 80++ only?? People nowadays die earlier.
Or ever wondered why kids nowadays are born handicapped or disabled even though the mother did not smoke, did not take any kind of alcohol during pregnancy, married before the age of 30?
Or why do kids nowadays have so many problems, especially skin? Eczema is the most common one. Why huh? Why why why?

Could it be the irresponsible people working just for the profit or the money? Or could it be the people who are unaware of the crisis we are facing right now? For example, KK has been extremely hot for the past few months and it can be really unbearable. It wasn't that hot last year. It's like the heat is piercing right through your delicate skin. Imagine all the ultraviolet that got into your skin. That's why ladies now apply lotion or cream or mosturiser to make it less ugly and less dry because ultraviolet makes skin looks like a grandma's skin. But you know, we can stop all this. Stop open buring damn it!!! Why do all those old uncle(mostly guys) won't fucking listen?! -.-

Why is it that cancer is such a common thing now? Why do women have to check their breast every now and then? Like before and after menstruation and also during bath time. Even girls that just reach 16 years old ought to be taught to know how to do the checking of breast lumps.

I hate eating in my canteen. Sometimes, I don't feel like eating. The food looks okay, still fresh, still hot as steams can be seen emitted from the food but imagine all those hot stuffs being poured into this white thing-plastic container. The one used for 'da bau'. Well, not a container but whatever.. Imagine all the toxic produced when the heat combined with the plastic. And all these toxics are the ones causing the normal cells to evolve into cancerous cells. You felt nothing when you eat all those food, you could not care less, but you should have looked at your face when you found out that you had cancer. You just felt the effect, haven't you? Isn't it too late?

There's this one time in Labuan. I could not forget what happened that day. It was embarrasing yet I do not deny it. I thought of buying a newpaper so I went into this stationery shop. At the counter sat an old Malay woman. She saw me coming with a newspaper in my hand yet she ignored me when I was ready to pay. In my mind, I was thinking "rude much, hey, you have a customer here". Then after some time, she attended to me. I paid. Then, I did the most stupid thing in the world. Actually an act of selfishness. I remembered how newspapers can seriously dirty one's hand with its black ink so I opened my mouth and asked, " can I have a plasctic bag?"(they never give one when you buy newspaper but no harm done by asking right?)
Wow, I was astounded by the look she gave me the second I said that.

Old woman: I only earned 10 cents by selling newspapers and you want a plastic bag?
Me : Huh?
Old woman: Have you ever received an education? Your school never taught about the effects of using plastics? Don't you know plastics are polluting our world? Global warming? (with an insulting tone and a death stare)
Me : (scared by an old lady)
Old woman: Don't you know plastics are banned in other countries? They use shopping bags now! They are going to ban the use of plastics in Malaysia too, don't you know that? Girl, you don't need plastic la.
Me : (nod and walked away)
Old woman: (still yapping)

Holy, I was like O.O, so scared to walk into that place ever again. But I admitted my mistake. I was terribly stupid and am ashamed.

Anyways, please be thoughtful and don't do anything stupid.

Urticaria

-_____- I finally know the non-chinese name for 'fung mok'.... Man.. I fucking hate this skin rashes of mine... =___=lll It's getting worse... Want to see some pictures of this urticaria thingy? I got it from wikipedia.


Oh, you had no idea how much it itches and hurts.. I can't even identify the so called triggers.. Didn't know this shit is really common now until I found out that 2 of my room mates have it too. Damn, why do kids nowadays have this shit?? What causes it?

Damn.. We are asked to find the triggers ourselves. That's like damn hard man.. There are so many things we eat, touch, smell! How to fucking know things that could cause my skin to swell and to become really red?! Only God knows man...

I'm so irritated at this urticaria shit.. Hahaha I suddenly thought of it's old name.. Something we used to call it - MIV(mosquito infected virus) or NeNeK SKIN. Hahaha we were so hillarious back then right? Kakaka. Why MIV? It's because it looks like you just got stung by millions of mosquitoes. It does look like mosquito bites right? Hahaha I forgot who came up with the name 'nenek skin' though.. Sarah or Anne ah? Hahaha

Gosh, now doctor told me that I have sensitive skin.. =___= You know what she told me?? I'm allergic to dust... I mean come on! Dust?!! That's like everywhere in the world!!! -.- Am told to clean up my dusty room in Labuan. Gah, the lazy disease strike me again.. Am feeling lazy already..

Future..

The colorgenics quiz was astoundingly very accurate. For 1 week now, I have been thinking of a way to blog the emotions I'm feeling. Well, this quiz says it all..

I am very terrified with the word 'future'. I hate it whenever I hear that word. Why is that word so overwhelming yet being such a simple word.. I hate you 'future'.

I'm not sure about the children nowadays but in my days, like primary one or two, whenever given the question "what do you want to be when you grow up?". It would always be, "I want to be a doctor or a nurse or a police, a soldier!" But the most common answer that every kid in my class is the word 'doctor'. I too, had a big dream like that. When I think back, I felt like why all the kids think that way? There are so many better dreams. So many good ones, like musician or a cook or something else that has to do with the word 'fun'.

Future, future, future. Future brings fear to my soul. I get really anxious when I think of my future. Time really flies and humans grow. Soon, we will be all grown up and a whole new life. Somehow, I'm so afraid of those. I feel like running away from them. Running away from the questioning of what would your future be like.

I'm so confused, that's all I can say..

CoLoRGenics

Just took this quiz few seconds ago.. This is so cool..

Name: bel
Date: 7/26/2009
Colorgenics Number: 06425137

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You are seeking protection against anything which might seem to be exhausting you or tiring you out. It would appear that you are seeking a life of security and physical ease, free from any problem or disturbance.

In the past there have been - and maybe there still are - many things that you have had to do without. You have now decided to set your sights on a position or situation that could give you greater prestige and which will afford you considerable self esteem.

You feel very lonely and frustrated at this time but your shyness and modesty precludes you from establishing any deep form of relationship. You feel rather isolated and alone. You are egocentric and you believe that you are always right - well maybe you are - but you have a short fuse and are likely to take offence for the slightest reason.

You are feeling trapped by the situation as it stands at this time and what is more, you feel powerless to remedy it. You are stressful, angry and disgruntled. You feel that everything that you try to do to change the situation is thwarted and your hopes and aspirations all seem to be receding into the ever distant future. You have reached the state where you now doubt whether your dreams will ever be achieved and this is not only causing mental stress but heartache. You need to get away from it all - you need to have time to think, to recuperate, to be able to make your own decisions.

You are fed up with other people trying to influence you and you also feel that it is necessary to protect yourself from the threat that your independence and freedom may be restricted. You would just like to be left alone.